Stylin' and Profilin'

I'm back again! Not even a week into this and I'm already ready to grace you with my words again. This post is going to be something that is a bit out of the norm for me.  I'm going to talk today about style, YES style.  Which if you know me, this is super ironic.  As I was sitting on the couch at the house I nanny at I was watching an episode of TLC's What Not To Wear which has been my guilty pleasure since its existence.  And yes, it devastates me that they no longer make new episodes and seasons.  I'll occasionally watch Stacey London's new show Love, Lust or Run but it just doesn't fill the void in my heart without Clinton Kelley.

Anyway, I was inspired to write this post watching this show for the millionth time.  I would have been their ideal candidate for this show.  Style is something that even I, as a 23 almost 24-year-old STILL struggle with.  Most everyone I know sticks to a certain style even if it doesn't have a label.  Classy, modest, boho, preppy, etc....If I could put a label on my style it would be....HOT. MESS. Or homeless chic would also probably fit.  But really, I love clothes and I have too many but every day I will literally  have a decent outfit picked out and then opt out for sweats and a hoodie.  I do not understand how some of you people, even just to run errands, look like you could just slip on a pair of heels and be ready for a night out.  I try to blame it on the fact that I'm a nanny and I don't have to be in public if I don't want to and even when I do leave the house I don't get out of the car. But in all reality, I will always opt for the most comfortable choice.

What does this have to do with finding myself? Funny you ask! I've been trying lately to pin point my style.  But I find it super difficult when I look at what I have in my closet.  Is it acceptable to have an eclectic style?  I tried to say for awhile there that I was a kind of mix of hippie/bohemian/country/vintage style.  But then I look at my fleece Columbia vest and my Ralph Lauren v-necks and think to myself, do I really dress that preppy?  Style is so confusing to me and my tastes change like the wind.  I couldn't tell you what my favorite store is to save my life.  I guess I'm coming more and more to the realization that you don't have to have a certain style.  I can be preppy, or hippie, or classy one day and country or vintage or whatever the next.  I find it crazy to get so invested in one way of looking at your body and what it looks like in one certain type of clothing.  The last episode of What Not To Wear I watched, the candidate was 80s pop princess Tiffany.  She pinned herself with the hippie style because she felt like she could hide her body better.  So maybe I need to just embrace the fact that I like EVERYTHING!

Another problem I face with style, is the fact that I like some things also that may be more eccentric.  I would do anything to have a crazy hair color but still be able to rock it in normal clothing.  Sadly my pasty white skin only allows me to pull off any variation of blonde without looking like Casper.  Also, having my degree in teaching, I have to get used to having a professional look. OH MY GOSH I STRUGGLE WITH THIS SOOO BAD!  I find myself throwing random clothes on my body in hopes that it looks good together to only be uncomfortable and pulling on my clothes all day long.

Don't even get me started on the fact that half the time if I think something looks good, most of the time it doesn't look as good as I thought.  All in all style is FRUSTRATING.  I'm trying my dang hardest to embrace the fact that no, I don't have a particular style.  Yes my outfit choices may give you whiplash.  But what I can use my eclectic clothes style for is to learn to love the body I am given.  Body image has been a struggle my entire life and probably will continue to be a struggle.  But I think I finally understand why some people do put such an emphasis on clothes.  It gives them a sense of identity, and a reason to love their body.  My goal after writing this post is to try and put more of an emphasis on taking care of myself and my body image.  Even if that means I feel hot in my sweats and sweatshirt :)

P.S. - I bought myself a guitar this week.  But that's for a later time!

Until I find some inspiration again, to God be allll the glory! Thanks for reading!

"Do not let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, conduct, love faith and purity." 1 Timothy 4:12